Today I was participating in a yoga class different than the majority of my clases. I finally returned to my routine of doing yoga 6 days of the week. Lucky for me, my daughter gave me the push I needed to start again on my path and I am in my third month now, breathing easier, and re establishing that good relationship with my body.
So in this particular class, with this particular instructor/teacher there is always a lot of balance/dancing because she actually asks that we do things a little different. She also likes to push us to get out of our confort known poses. Where is the foundation, I remember thinking, when I started to wiggle and wobble as I am trying to go from standing split to standing up holding that same leg still up but now in front of me.
In yoga we ask the body to do things we sometimes know our older bodies won't do. Sometimes is not the fact that we cannot do them, is the fact that we know too much, as we have lived long enough to know the consequences of a fall, even if it is a small one. We also know that we can hurt ourselves if we are not careful with our older backs. So I play and I try, and I never take myself that seriously, so if I look like a crazy person I don't really worry what the next person may say. But sometimes I am not really that adventurous.
Because I am also very aware of my limits. And that is why I wonder if this is all somehow related to our foundation. A strong foundation gives you a better balance, just like in life.
This is what I now search for. Because even when I think it is obvious to me that I do have a good foundation, it may not necessarily be the kind of foundation that I required to be less afraid to try and simply trust that the foundation is there to catch me when I fall....if all that makes any sense
